You say you really know me
You're not afraid to show me, what is in your eyes
Wednesday, May 5, 2010 / 12:51 AM
I finally finish creating my blog. :)
I'm going to update very very often since I'm using BB now.
For my very first post, I'm going to talk about the whole problem. This is my side of the story. BE FOREWARNED: It is going VERY VERY LONG POST.
If you're my friend, you would know I don't anyhow set rules or point out things unless I think it is very serious.
1. Late
XW and I tried our best to meet each other and go to school together. There was once I purposely go out of my house very early so that I can reach school early too. When I was about to reach Causeway Point, XW msg me "where are you?". I already suspected that she just step out of your house and it was just like I predicted. Out of goodwill, I waited for her because she is my sister. I waited until we are almost late and definitely I'm slightly pissed that why to prevent this thing from ever happening I set a rule between us. [We will only wait for each other for 5 mins, if by then any of us haven reach, the other party just go to school first.] E.g. Class starts at 8.00a.m., meet at 7.15 a.m., by 7.20 a.m. if XW or I haven reach, we will just go first. This is to prevent us from being late to class, is this rule so unreasonable? I don't think, I mean I came to ITE to study, not to wait for people. I don't like to reach the class after the teacher, you like it so much, do it yourself. I'm always absent doesn't mean I'm always late. Don't believe? Ask Yvonne, I always reach school slightly after her.
2. Speak up
During lunchtime, I set a rule between the 4 of us [if anything bothering you, just say it out so that there won't be any misunderstanding]. Is this rule so unreasonable also? I know you're unhappy about somethings within the group that is why I set this rule. At that point you can say but you choose not to, so is this my fault?
3. CMB Role Play
Initially, Jos and I wanted to do the Role Play together but since you say wanted to do together. We are fine with it too. The role-play suppose to perform the next day. We agreed that we will do it together during lunchtime but right after WL finish her food, she went smoking and do her stuff. Jos and I said we will go to Student Hub first and wait for you guys. When we reach Student Hub, most of our classmates are there writing the script. We waited until we have to go for our classes then you guys come. I'm slightly unhappy but because you said she do some financial thing so I just forget about it.
During BE, Mr Tang give us about 5-10 mins break, Jos and I decided to do the script since everyone is there. We only do 1/4 of a page and wanted to continue after school because we have to do the role-play the next day. After school, you said it is going to rain want to go home, of course we are slightly pissed. You're saying go home without catching rain is more important than our role-play? Have you thought of the others who are going to role-play. If we don't do it after school, how are they going home to practice? You suggested phone conference, Jos disagreed because she can't use her house phone due to some personal reasons (have you ever though of why she said cannot?) plus you want us to waste our phone bill to conference on the phone when we can stay in school and finish up the script?
Finally Jos and I give in and agreed to meet the next day 10.30 a.m. (30 mins before class starts) Jos and I meet up early and have breakfast together, we reached school at 10.10 a.m. So we decided to do first before you guys come. Until 10.30, you guys msg us and said you will be late. I mean do you really think within 30 mins we can finish the whole script? Of course not plus you guys late. After Jos and I finished the script, the time was 10.50 a.m., we see you guys haven't come so we decided to go to the classroom first. JW reached the classroom, she gave Jos and I a script that she wrote the day before for us to discuss. I mean like she wrote a script on her own for us to discuss. When you guys reach the classroom, I asked you guys to do the role-play.
Why? The script is 3 pages long, you guys only "contributed" 1/4 of the first page. Put yourself in Jos and my shoes, who will you ask to do the role-play? The girl who went home and do a script on her own or the members who only "contributed" 1/4 of the first page? Plus do you say that the person "contributed" to the work when he/she only done so little? Have you guys ever imagine what will happen if Jos and I really waited for you guys to come and do nothing about the script? Plus you asked us to do some amendments, I mean Fuck you la, you didn't contribute who give you the rights to ask us to do amendments.
4. Influence
After we agreed to meet the next day to do CMB script, XW and I took train home. During the journey, I asked her how she feels about the group and she didn't say much. I told her that "I won't let anyone influence me from my studies". I know it sounds a little harsh but spare a thought for me.
I'm 20 this year, by the time I finish Higher Nitec Accounting = 22 years old
By the time I go to poly = 23 years old (compare to the people who admitted to Poly through O lvl, they are 17/18. I'm 5/6 years older than them)
By the time I finish my poly course = 26 years old
I still want to take ACCA.
Can you see how much pressure I'm giving myself? I don't want to waste another 1 or 2 years in ITE again because I know once I lose my focus, I might not do well.
Plus you need to think of others who are really study hard. When doing a project, if one person didn't do his/her given tasks, it will directly affect the marks of the group.
5. Smoking
Out of this whole incident, I feel I should apologise to WL about this. I'm not aiming at smoker because my whole family are smokers but I really feel that one must know their priority right. Like if we agreed to do project during lunch then don't go and smoke. I know it is a pleasure for smoker to smoke after they eat but unless you tell me that smoking is more important than your studies. I'm not controlling you not to smoke at all but only when we agreed to have discuss during lunch. Is that so unreasonable? I regretted asking XW to come and talk to you because what she said might not be what I really mean or the meaning is the same but the word that she use might lead you thinking of other things.
6. Over-sensitive
I seriously think that you're over-sensitive about somethings.
a) I left my bag on your chair
When you walk in the classroom, I'm busy re-writing the script that I totally forgotten about my bag.
b) Giggle and Laughter between me and Jos
We are not talking about you, stop thinking so much!
c) After CMB, We walk off without saying goodbye.
We're rushing to meet people that why we forget to say goodbye to you.
You're angry over such little little things. How immature..
7. Mindset
E.g. Office Application
You got B for OSA last year that why you're not exempted but you keep complaining about you having to take that module. Can you change you mindset? Rather thinking of you needed to take that module which you think is totally stupid because you already know most of the things. Take it as an opportunity that you're able to score A because you already know most of the things. If you get exempted with a B, you're GPA will get pull down because it is a B. Why not work hard, use this opportunity and scored for an A to push your GPA up?
8. Acting like a Boss
In your blog, you said I acted like the boss of the group but up to this point, the things that I have said is totally reasonable. You refuse to accept other people's opinion and you always think that you're right. You thought that you're give in but you did not.
9. Review/Comment
Everyone have their rights to write what they want in their blog. When this incident happened, I told my bf about what happened in school because I'm really depressed. When he reached home, he started to give his comment about this situation. It is like giving review after you watch a movie. There is no right or wrong plus it is his blog. He has the rights to write whatever he wants. My bf is very nice to put down his hp number in case of anything. Your bf called and asked him about this matter. He is right to say that girls should settle their problem themselves but my bf is not trying to get involve in this matter. Out of goodwill again, my bf removed your name because your bf politely said please.
As they are chatting about our matter, you shouted from the back "If Joanne buay song(not happy), ask her don't talk to me in school la". WOW~! how immature and childish.. Like my bf said to your bf after you shouted "In the first place, Joanne didn't buay song (not happy) your gf"
10. Clear things out
After this incident, Jos and I decided to clear things out with you in a nice way. Jos asked nicely that we should talk but you rejected her in a very cold manner (you said "there isn't a need to" and you walk away). Jos started to talk some sense with you and you called up your bf said that someone wanted to find trouble. What trouble? We just wanted to clear our misunderstanding, you being immature and childish decided to call your bf. So it is Jos and my fault that we want to clear the misunderstanding with you?
Let me tell you this, you should thank God that your bf didn't get involve into this problem. Otherwise things will really get very very ugly.
11. Class Outing
One of our classmate organize a class outing. He discussed it with Jos and I before he start telling everyone. I rejected it because I'm having my CCA. Jos didn't want to go at first because I'm not going but this classmate of mine is very sincere. He really wanted us to go so Jos rejected all her meet-up on Friday to go for this Class Outing. She told him that she will be going in class. Someone heard it started pressuring this classmate of mine. In the end, Jos didn't want to put this classmate of mine in a difficult position, she decided not to go.
I mean this is a class outing not friends outing, anyone who belongs to this class can go. Who give you the right to decide who can and who can't go. Plus stop dragging our classmates who are not involve into this problem. They are innocent. Stop dragging them to choose a side to stand.
12. Total Actress
You should seriously considering of join Mediacorp, stop tell how pitful you are and how you have been "bullied" in our group. Because they've only heard your side of the story, once the truth have been reveal, you will know how many people hated you for cheating their feeling.
Like what Jos said in her blog. "If she could be your best-friend this minute and shoot her mouth off about her previous ex-besties's ugly past and secrets, she could do so to you just on the very very next minute, scary much?"
Some of them already saw what kind of people you really are, thats why they know I'm telling the truth.
Ever heard of " a leopard never change it's spots"? You can't pretend to be who you are now for long.
Super long story right? I know. =)
This is my side of the story.
This is the last time I'm going to talk about this problem, unless you try to do stunts again. You will know what I'm going to.
Lastly I wanted to thank all the friends who encourage and comfort me during the past few weeks. I love you guys <3
